Happiest Day.

The room was dark and not a sliver of light penetrated the thick black air. But knowing each and every nook and cranny, every inch of where she was; she found her way across the room to the table that was placed at the far corner between two chairs facing opposite to each other. Standing close to it, she used her hands to feel the surface of the table and found the matchbox. Opening it, she took out a match and struck it and suddenly a dull yellow radiance filled the room. She started lighting up the candles that were standing so taut on the table and one by one all three of them succumbed to the flame and started giving themselves up bit by bit, moment by moment.

She got up crossed the room once again and this time came to stand in front of the mirror. She looked at her reflection that was staring back at her. Wearing a black dress that flowed around her, accentuated every curve of her body. Very slowly she picked up the mascara from the dresser and started putting it on her long lashes, making them so thick that maybe the sun rays couldn’t find their way into them, so thick that the being of her lover’s soul could lay there safe and sound forever. After carefully applying mascara, she put it back on the dresser and picked up that blood red lipstick he so loved. It was to put him on fire he said. The curves of her lips when colored with red; it was death then and there. And so she smiled at the thought of him and applied red. Finally done with that, she next tended to her hair that was all over the place. Fixed it in a quick bun at the back of her head with strands of hair strayed and wouldn’t find their way. She looked like a gorgeous mess in an elegance that could only be dreamt of.

When she was fixing the last pin the door behind her opened. He stepped into the room and shut the door behind him. Looking at the reflection through the mirror she suddenly let her gaze drop so that he wouldn’t catch her looking at him and she froze. He crossed the distance between him and her in swift long steps and came to stand just behind her, his hot deep breath on her neck and his fierce eyes on her face. He took hold of her hands and let them fall free on her sides.

He stared at her. “You look beautiful.”

Unable to utter a word and afraid that she will instead start incoherent mumbling, she just smiled a very soft smile. He then picked up a string of pearls from the dresser and slowly fastened it around her neck, both of them alert of the closeness in which they stood. He then put his hands on her shoulders and made her turn around.

She did so, as if floating in air, all the time looking at the floor, afraid that if she looked at him, she will lose all control. He took her hand, guided her to the table, pulled out a chair and let her sit. Then he took his place opposite her. The candles created such a magical aura that both of them were mesmerized in the land of unknown not knowing where to start from. He couldn’t keep his eyes off of her and his heavy breathing was the only sound she was aware of. She then poured him a glass of drink and pour a little for herself with tremulous hands trying to be careful not to spill any of it. He picked up his glass and for a few seconds gazed at her from over the rim and took a sip.

“How is the weather outside?” she asked.

“Cool. The wind’s chilly.” He replied.

“Yes. It’s cold.” She said.

“Not in here.”

His tone was husky. A blush slowly crept across her cheeks and she started fidgeting with the tablecloth. He got up and turned on the music player. Adele’s voice blared out of the speakers. And just like that he came and stood next to her and offered her his hand. She placed her little hand in his and stood up. He guided her to the middle of the room.

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

He took her in his warm embrace and started moving to the music. Her right hand on his shoulder and the other around his waist, she felt the breath leaving her and her feet were suddenly not in her control. Moving to the sound of the music they felt a state of trance enveloping them. They were in a place that was too real to be a fantasy – too beautiful to be real. Her mind became blank and she thought of nothing. Nothing but him.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

She felt his arms tighten around her. Somehow the mention of tears made him feel protective of her. He couldn’t stand the thought of her hurting. The silence was deep and reverberating between them but there was no need for words. Silence was speaking on their behalf. And what the silence whispered in the mid-Autumn air was more magical than a thousand words that could have ever be used to describe how they felt in this moment. This was a moment worth a lifetime. Millions of lifetimes.

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I’ve known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

“I’ve known it too. I’ve known it from the moment that we met. And I promise you. I will never do you wrong. ” He whispered.

Promises. Promises she so wanted to hear him make. Promises she had dreamt of the day she had seen him. There could be nothing more magical that this. This can’t be real. She closed her eyes and twirled. Back where she was in his embrace and the night couldn’t have been more perfect. Maybe it was the sip of her drink or the music or just the magic, she felt light-headed and her steps became more fluid.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn’t do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love

His placed his left hand at the small of her back and from his right lifted her face to meet her gaze. Her eyes were closed as if she wasn’t here, she was far away somewhere he couldn’t reach. Gently in a slow moment she opened her eyes and looked at him. Her blue eyes sparkled like stars in the morning sky. He could see his whole world in them. And this was the place where he had decided to spend the rest of his life.

“Will you marry me?”

Time stopped. Her feet froze. Her life changed. A smile appeared across her face. The sky lit up and her soul danced to the rain of her elated mind. A tempest of emotion rose within the depths of her being and was divulged to the world by the tears of happiness that blinded her for a minute.

This was the happiest day of her life.




It can get really hard

When you have this sudden urge to express yourself sometimes but you know the other person is not interested in what you have to say.

When you have had a fight and you want to make up, but you keep your ego and live with that craving and praying that the other person will make the first move

When someone fought with you and you try to take the first step to make up, even though you know it wasn’t your fault in whatever that happened

When your friends fight with you because you’ve hurt them without even considering once how much they’ve hurt you.

When you’re going through a really hard time in your life and people start leaving you saying that you have changed.

When you have this urge to cry and scream but you can’t because you have always presented yourself really strong in front of the world.

When you are going through such a hard time but to the world you always put up a smile and say “I’m fine”.

When you want to say “no” to someone because you wanted something equally as badly but still say “yes” just as not to let the other person think ill of you.

When the other person never treats you right, but you put up with their behavior only because you love them.

When you are with someone you don’t love, but you are with him anyway because of the stability and convenience that it provides you.

When you work so hard to achieve something but in the end someone else claims your share because they’ve had a right contacts and you had just your hard work to rely on.

When you expect so much and get nothing in return.

When life is going good but with one wrong move, your whole world topples down right in front of your eyes and you can do nothing to save it.

When your lover cheats on you with your best friend and you have no idea what to do or what to say.

When you have to live by killing your child in your womb just because the father of that child denies it was his.

When people harass you constantly but you don’t say a word because it is your job to tolerate.

When you crave for someone’s attention but the other person has no time for you and you can’t even complain.

When you want to give up but you keep on trying because somewhere in you, you have a shred of hope left.

When there is this hole of emptiness accompanying pain in your soul when someone who is so dear to you leaves you.

When you beg him to stay, to come back to you but all he does is insult you and leaves you hanging in the middle of nowhere.

When all you do is give give give and get nothing in return.


It does get really hard.



A belief that has been strengthened with each adversary I have been through.


“Allah will open up a door that, out of great despair, you thought had not been created with a key.”



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